I could be a vampire

I wish that I could be a vampire,
And someday I will,
I want to taste a blood,
I want to read minds,
To run fast,
And to change my eye colour,
To taste my own blood,
Is the way I can feel the pain……

Dark Angel

Angel descend form the sky,
Going through the darkness of me,
Therefore the angel called the dark angel,
He enter my humanity and possesses me,
To bring melancholy in my heart,
To grant domination that kills me,
To guide me in the most critical way,
To drain my head,

Dark angel kill me as I say,
I don’t want to be here,
So that my darkness will be gone eternally,
There is no happiness that happen to me even a slight,

My heart shatter me,
My soul kills me,
My thought brings me to dilemma,
So what is the point of living in this world with no love??

Is something wrong with me
Why cant everybody just let me be
Cant u tell me when something little happens i fly of the deep end
Is it cuz I'm still waiting for my heart to mend
Everytime i hear Ur voice i just wanna die
Go jump of a bridge to see if i can fly
When i look at my phone and see its your name
My emotions n my anger there not so tame
Now its ironic weed joke bout beaten others with sticks
I'll do that plus a few swift kicks
And if i didn't love you all this i would do
But now that we Brok up all I'm feeling is blue
Now that this has happened you act as if it was all a dream
Now i just see myself face down floating down stream

Loneliness

downcast and alone in this world no ones love me
try to dwindle my love is not so easy
fabricate my own house at the side of a tree
all around me are just playing and that’s a reality
all saying that i’m outlandish
solitary and solemn coz im anguish
bemoan all inside my heart and want them to finish
throw me in a crater cos they are so selfish
struggling in this life that i want to end
what i feel right now is just hackneyed
but sometimes i want to learned
how to love your self with your owned
im always a soliloguy
outcry and saying want them to die
eyes are so dark that always cry
and my heart want to gratify
beneath the green cherry tree
looking at the moon feelings that there’s no gravity
walking in the middle of a cemetery
testing if my fate will end because of me
humiliate my self to all
horrify them to hate me as a hole
my life i think is imperishable
inalienable that to live forever is unbelievable
if god gave me a sovereignty
i will kill my self just to be clearly
to garnish my life is so gaudy
die alone feel so guilty..

what i need is love

I may not experience love at all,
But the only thing I want is,
I want to love,
Like other experience love,
Coz I am not the type of girl that addicted to love,
But I am a type of girl,
Who waits for love,
I want to give much time to wait for love,
But time past by the day I wake up,

I want to experience hugs and kisses,
But not loneliness,
I want to feel the love and tenderness,
But not the cruelness,
And what i need is love...

Cutter part 2

I slither to the bathroom
To breath
To live
To watch
my blood run down
my wrist
I take the blade
and slice open my skin
Just one moment of pain
Red crawls out my out skin
and plops to the floor…